Miss my long hair....

Brought wig (hair extention) before CNY... but whole CNY also no mood to pan leng leng... this evening going for dinner, so take out my hair extention and make some changes for myself.... pan leng leng..mood will feel better... hahaha...Below is the photos with my hair extention....




Hmm.... suddently miss my waist long hair alot..... been cutting short hair for almost 10months de.... now wanna grow back... aiya.... dun know have to spend how long to grow back le?? 1-2 years?? :(..... no choice...have to wait lo.....

Piggie Day

was keeping myself as busy as i can for last few days... was extremely tired today in term of physically and mentally.... so rest at home for the whole day....mostly sleep the whole day... haha... moody.... lazy to move.... so just lying on bed and sleep.... really sleep whole day.... just wake up when mum ask me for lunch or dinner... after eat..online a while and stick on the bed again.....really tiredddddddddddddddd......

later going yum cha with bewah and laisun....my ji mui.... but now still feel tired.... haha..mayb sleep too much...lol....

逐渐的。。。

我想逐渐的，我已说服自己接受事实，接受一个我一直以来不想接受， 一直以来逃避的事实。。。这几天真的好辛苦，好难过，好伤心，整个新年都没真真的开心过。。。谢谢家人给我的“无声”understanding， 我知道虽然你们都知道了， 但不要让我伤心，你们选着我最舒服的方式去给我加油。。。

也谢谢老友们的加油。。。 谢谢你们的陪伴。。。 好让我能够度过我这漫长伤心的假期。。。

我会学着逐渐的把这段伤感的感情放下。。。 看清一切，是时候清醒了。。。

" Life still need to go on even my heart broken into pieces!!! " this is what i read from a book.... haha... wish me happy always~~~cheerss~~~

大扫除

很快的。。。又是鼠年的最后第二天了！！！今天超累的，一间小小的房间，竟然花了我足足三小时的大扫除。。。 呵呵~~ 太多的东西要清理了，除了整理房里的几个橱，书橱， 衣橱，书桌，零零碎碎的“杂货“橱之外，吸尘， 抹地，换床单，洗厕所等等。。。啊~~快累死呢！丢了好多好多的东西。。。除了整理零零种种的东西也顺便整理自己的心情吧！！！ 早晨的一杯咖啡，竟然可以做这么多东西~~ 可怕吧！！ 不瘦都假啦 :p

吃了午餐后，又要开工了，帮“小黑”洗白白。。。可怜的小黑，近两个礼拜没洗白白了。。。今天变得超英俊的^____^ muaks~~

晚饭后，和老友丽珊lim teh 谈谈天，说说情~~~这样又一天了，时间过的超快的。难以接受！！！

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房间已经变回原有的。。。 没有了你的味道，没有了属于你的专属。。。我想一切会随时间冲淡。。。想问你：你还好吗？？ 虽然，分开的日子不长，但回忆与想念偶尔还是抵抗不了~~~ 愿你是比从前快乐的！！！

~~ No Title ~~

Yappy!!!!.... Finally i got my phone back today... sent to Samsung service center for almost two months :(.... what i concern is not my phone is my phonebook.... i save all my 700++ contacts in my phone memory.... luckily can get my phone back before CNY..else every sms i need to reply " may i know who is there? my phone rosak..lost all my contacts..." hahaha....

Well.... will start my 10 days CNY holidays tmr.... Hmm.... actually nothing to do also...haha..just anggap it as my recovering period gua..... it's been almost few weeks i never have enough sleep and even eat also... :p i lost alots of KGs.... every one saw me now ...first thing will say " why you suddently so thin de??? " haha.... its not i dint eat ..... just tat i really cant eat.. and sometime i force myself to have some food, i will feel vomit... really no mood to bring the food into my stomach... pity pity.... hope CNy coming, my mood will better and eat more to increase some weight,...at least!! hope so....

Sista, really happy meet you yesterday nite... really almost 2 years ++ we never meet after you when to UK....you become prettier and prettier liao... and thanks for all the sourvenir and my last year birthday gift.... love the perfume so much.... one more collection for my perfume series again... hehe ;) but still not able to catch up with you for so many things... few hours for our chit chat is really really short... hope that we can chit chat again before you went back to UK ya...and remember call me when u come KL during CNY ;)...wish you enjoy ur CNy in ur hometown ^____^

my heart still bleeding.... when it will stop bleeding neh???sigh... need to stay strong ya!!! hope that i can put down everything soon.... wish me happy always~~~ cheersssss~~~

结束了。。。

一次一次的机会，换来的是一次一次的伤害。。。
一次一次的包容，换来的是一次一次的谎言。。。
一次一次的迁就，换来的是一次一次的变本加厉。。。

你已不在乎，就别再说你想要继续了。。。
我不需要被可怜的爱。。。
也不需要只有空着身躯而没有灵魂的爱。。。

给你的迁就，包容，容忍已经超出我的极限好远好远了。。。
对你而言，我的伤心，低落，眼泪，所有我的感受， 也没心疼，心痛了。。。
因你已不在乎，不再关心了。。。
那就别那么自私的浪费我所能给的机会。。。想要却已经没心经营的态度。。。
你可否知道？？？ 这还比你直接坦白的说放弃更伤吗？？？

这段感情拖拖拉拉了好一段日子。。。我不想再浪费你我的时间。。。
而我也没办法去宽容你所隐瞒的事。。。 有或没，我也不想知道。。。
我只知道，对我你却不会再有哪疼我关心我的一颗心。。。 却能为她人。。。你已没心做我的避风港了！！！

真的很伤。。。我也不想在对这爱情这么执著不舍得放开了。。。虽然很爱你，但你近几个月所给的伤害却逐渐的把我这两年的美好回忆洗掉了。。。我已决定把它放下了。。。我知道这对我是一个很困难的事， 但我会学者去让时间冲淡我心灵的挫伤。。。我真得不需要不珍惜不在乎我的另一半。。。

结束了。。。 一切从这秒开始。。。还你自由。。。真心祝福！！！

Another Day Again...

So fast wednesday de.... was extremely busy this morning due to changing of system, many PO need to rush so that all the stock must reach my store before friday.... but till now, system still havent complete install in my NB yet...sigh...tmr need to rush again....




Received a call from Tiffany ( my leng lui siu lai lai, my ex-colleague ) to have lunch together... long time we never have lunch together already....





Bring her to Kinsahi, a newly open japanese restaurant at The Mines... Hmmm.... once we step in.... nice environment, cant imagine The Mines can have such shop... hahha.... :p... the food there quite nice.... consider got standard...more or less same standard to the one i always go in Sri Hartamas, Aoyoma..... the sahsimi here is very fresh also... yummy yummy....

So full.... later at nite still need to attend Microsoft "Lou Sang" Dinner at Jalan Bukit Bintang... eat eat and eat again :p.... but why i still lost so many KGs... :( sigh.... mood not good... phychology will make a person lost weight.... hahhaa...

Just snake a while to write blog here... need to continue work la... cheersss~~~

从新出发！！！2009！！！

谢谢

今天因某某东西， 心情超伤感，超心酸的。。。心如不停的bleeding...

很感动，谢谢这几天一直陪伴我的老友。。。很关心我， 开解我，鼓励我。。。

老友，和你认识到今也有10年了。。。想和你说声：“谢谢你， 有你我是幸运的！！” 有你这老友，今生无愧！！！

Day Out with Cindy...

Well... appoinment with Cindy last few day to go out shopping today.... so reach Time Square about 1230noon, since Cindy will be late due to she got something else to do, so go cut my hair 1st at Kimarie but... full... need to back at 3pm...sigh... then just walk around in time square... walk alone for 1 hour but cant even catch one clothes for CNY... hahaha....cham de....

Saw a make up course today, actually was doing survey for make up course since few years ago... i like make up and hair do stuff.... this course is about RM7K.. really worth it and quite cheap compare to other academy... normally school fees itself also about 10K.... now 心大心小 dun know want to take up this course or not.... coz i'm really interested on it...and back to study also one of my plannning in 2009.... although still not prepared to go back study for Master.... i think short course should be fun for me... hahaha.. :p and i still dun have money to go oversea to have my short course.... Hmm.... how le??? should i register and start study after CNY??? need to plan carefully for my financial.... 7K for a study not a small amount also... sigh..... should i or shouldnt i???? part time study and full time working will be a very challenging for me...hmm..i think so... :p

Need to think properly this few days.... 7K school fees + few K neccessary school equipments.... wow.... no more nice dress, nice food, nice lens, nice gadget???......bla bla bla... hahhaa.... but i think i will happy to spend this 7K .... ^____________^

Ok, dun talk about course liao.... today i shoot some photos for Cindy... but not satisfy with the photos i shoot... sigh...sorry Cindy... will shoot for you next time k??? Just some share out :

Cindy... Hope you like this pics la.... cheers~~~

手放开

我把自己关起来
只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开城门
对著夜幕发呆
看著往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开
听著别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱 我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏 认真真看情感慨

不能给你未来 我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来 伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开

不要一张双人床中间隔著一片海
感情的污点 就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开

不想用言语拉扯 所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台 有人走有人来
我的心是一个车牌写著等待

我把收音机打开 听著别人的失败
哽咽的声音彷佛诉说著相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

我想这首歌很适合我的心情。。。你要的爱 我学不来。。。当眼泪留下来，伤已超载，
分开也是另一种明白。。。我给你最后的疼爱是手放开。。。感情的污点 就留给时间慢慢漂白。。。不想用言语拉扯 所以选择不责怪 ... 感情中专心的人容易被伤害。。。愿你能幸福快乐!!! 保重!!!

就让这首歌

就让这首歌
今夜一直重复
我们都没错 只是看清楚
原来不懂的事 没有什么好说
现在先不要说 就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱 爱情的终点
回忆一触即发 如何忍住眼泪
从今以后各走各的路
身上留过你的沓图 怎么可能不在乎
不怪现在 只怪当初
谁辜负了 谁糊涂
清醒了没 越是卖醉 却不醉
绕了一圈圈 越想念谁
电影散场了没 一把眼泪 一把鼻涕 从喜剧变成悲剧
怎么继续 只好放着这首歌曲
你是我的另一个人 爱这么过瘾
就像生命共同体 如今却只能写下这回忆
电影散场之后 你是否留下什么
一切不难再重头 那感伤对画面说
这决定变得轻松 夜深人静 心回头
有首歌 它一直 repeat repeat 是为了什么
是分手的时候 就让我们自由
回忆一幕幕 就像一场电影
原来一直感动 电影终要结束
结束难免痛苦 心中留下伤痕
就让这首歌 萦绕在耳边
我尝试 刻画着每一次
曾经快乐的每一日 这首歌要播几次
有太多的舍不得事
歌词像针在刺 旋律让眼眶湿
曾几何时 开始静止 打不开的画夹
从你哝我哝的梦 到现在你懂我懂的沉默
所有的痛 就让时间来破
电影散场之后 就在那回首处
我真心为你祝福
有没有那么一首歌 会让你很想念
有没有那么一首歌 你会假装听不见
听了又掉眼泪 却按不下停止键
多少的夜 就这样开着灯
到另一个夜 我们之间有多少故事在这首歌的里面
人不在 就让这首歌在 回忆也还在 就让这一首歌
今夜一直重复 我们都没错
只是看清楚 原来不懂的事
哦 没有什么好说 现在先不要说
就让我们沉默 最后的拥抱 爱情的终点　

Yesterday Nite...

went to KLCC for shooting after work yesterday nite.... why so desperate??? coz i never shoot KLCC before since 2 years in photography... and becoz of one reason... i wanna diverse my attention.... i dun want to think of you... becoz i know i will miss you alot....

since mum dint cook, so i eat at Bongsen KLCC, its a vietnamese restaurant.... erm... the food decoration quite nice..and the food not bad also.... but due to my feeling and mood... even super nice taste.. i also feel okok.. haha... damn it.... but luckily still can have some shoot for the food.... at least some thing nice to keep in my memories....

After dinner, went out KLCC park and have some shoot.... erm... not much nice pic..not really satisfy the photos i took yesterday...sigh.... emotional can affect many things... :( Just one photo of KLCC can share out only....

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受伤的心灵。。。不知道何时才能平复呢？？？一直以为迁就让一步就会好的。。。但得到的答案却是相反的。。。 你已不再懂得珍惜， 不想迁就包容了。。。那么我也不想再强迫你了。。。不想再做你的包袱。。。希望没有我的你。。。会是更快乐的。。。我给你最后的的疼爱，是把手放开。。。不想一切美好的回忆也没有了。。。只因太爱你。。。 所以我会学着放下。。。

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转
着要怎么停呢

我累了！！ 是时候， 把一切归零。。。还你自由。。。愿您比从前快乐。。。已经不懂得怎样去爱你的我。。。